Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Let the Mindgames Begin....Again

My Mind, oh my mind.

I often comment on facebook how I wish there was a pause button or an off switch when the mind is racing away with endless worries and thoughts.

Well folks, my world is completely flipped around. Yes it is true. My wife and I are living in separate places, or in official terms separated. No reconciliation in the near future, trust me I`ve asked.

I have five wonderful ladies in my life, no not girlfriends, my children that keep me spry and on my best behavior.

Life is lonely, despite having two jobs, and five kids.

As for the mind game, and diabetes, well at first it took a nose dive, seriously, crazy numbers, I fear my next A1C, but if ya ain`t got the mind under wraps then diabetes management inevitably fails.

It would appear that I completely gave up on this blog. But the truth is, I havn`t been able to focus a whole lot on the essentials.  Keeping my job most days has been a challenge, as depression, sadness, anger or whatever the flavour of the day was engulfed my life and thwarted my ability to concentrate on the most basic tasks.

 But I am back. I`ve climbed out of that deep dark place, albeit still looking over my shoulder at the precipice, but far enough from the edge to feel safe now.

So hopefully I will jot my thoughts down on occasion and they will make a little sense, and just maybe I will relate to some one out there....


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