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I feel the impulse to do so, and have a few minutes. So here goes.
I have progressed a ways since my First Post but still feel that daily life, you know the "grind" the "rat race" is "heavy:" and I am honestly trying to remain upbeat. But near the end of the work day, I feel, exhausted, drained, and sad.
It takes all the effort I have to remain calm, and loving with my family. But can't help to ponder why is it so hard, so much of a struggle every single day to be happy, positive, and productive. When in actuality the intense desire to just stay in bed, not work, is so imminent.
I have a great life! I really do, but my inner mood is bllllaahhh! What the hell?
I did this Depression quiz (Click here for quiz) and it indicated that I am still depressed.
Then I ask, is it depression or simply exhaustion from too busy a life?
I would love to feel lighter, mentally, more positive more often, more motivated daily. I just feel sometimes like I am going through the motions of life, and eventually I am going to be lying on my death bed, going wow that life went fast.
I will be 39 tomorrow. I look well for my age, but feel old on the inside.
I see my General Practitioner Next week. I will discuss changing up things.